To the Male Gender

Dear Men, Boys, Guys, Males or which ever you class yourselves in.

There are a few things you need to know. (Not all off you, just some of you)
I do understand that what happened in my marriage was not/is not an easy predicament to deal with, But it is something that I do have to deal with. I know that it wasn't the best thing a husband can do, but it happened. So please stop telling me so.
Please understand that I can hold my own. I do not need a Knight in shinning armour to come save me. I am doing fine!!
My Mischiefs do not need another Father because they have one who loves them and they him, so any attempts to discredit him as a Father or say "Your better off without him" will only hinder the chance of even a friendship. We are still good friends and I do not appreciate people talking badly about my friends.
Also note that we are not yet divorced. I do not even have the divorce papers yet, let alone signed them. So until then, I am still a married Woman.
I have not yet healed from the damaged that has been done, and until then, I will not even contemplate any form of relationship until this has happened. Note, that could take years.
I also have a great relationship with my own Father, so I do not feel the need to fill that void with someone older than him. He is about to turn 50 by the way.
Genuine friendships are perfectly fine, but the moment you say "lets be "friends", spend some time together, and see where it takes us" Is not. If those are your intentions, then you can back the truck up, turn around, drive off and find someone else.

Thank you for listening
Yours sincerely
Stressed Shrew

Sorry, I've just had somewhat of a stressful week.
Why did it take all of this to happen in my life, (marriage, kids, bust up) for the opposite gender to show interest in me?
I know i haven't blogged in ages and it was my birthday the other day as well. I'm now 26. Although people have commented that they thought i was about 22. That does make me feel good. :D Also sliding down the water slide with my mischiefs on a hot day makes me feel good to. Bring on more hot days please, Roll on summer!!
I'm sorry if all that sounds harsh, I just needed to vent. Please excuse me for that. :p
See, I'm smiling now *insert big chibby smile*

Time poor

I really wish that i had more time to blog. Blogging is fun and a way that i relax. If anyone can tell me how to make time go slower and give me more energy so that i can have more time to relax, it would be much appreciated.
Cheers

A sheepish day

I picked Devin up today at lunch time when his Kindy finishes. We arrive home and as i finish closing the gate and turn around to walk down my garden steps, i catch a glimpse of the neighbours dog heading down the side of my house. It was only for a split second then his backside disappears round the corner. My neighbours dog is a large medium size dog, fluffy coat of a light cream colour. He often gets out of his create during the day and roams in my yard. I was not the only one that noticed the dog, Devin to noticed it, but not the same way as i did.

Devin "Mummy there is sheep in our house"
Mummy "No honey, that was the neighbours dog"
Devin "No Mummy, it was a sheep"
Mummy "The neighbour dog is shaggy and could look like a sheep sometimes"

He just left it at that, he wasn't going to push the subject.
Madison was falling asleep in my arms, so i unlocked the house, took her to her bed then proceeded to go to the window to shut the curtains. As i went to the window, i took a glimpse outside to check on the dog and make sure he was ok, but i got surprise. Standing in my backyard were 3 sheep.

"See mummy, sheep are in our house."
"Yes Devin, you were right, there are sheep in our yard"

I tried to take photos of the 3 sheep, but alas, these sheep where somewhat sheepish and took off the moment i appeared in my yard.

After Madison woke from her afternoon nap, we went for a walk. An hour later we arrive home to find our backyard invaded yet again by sheep, but this time there were 4. I managed to get some photos this time before i herded them back down the driveway to where they belong.

Although would it be wrong of me to have one for dinner? The thought of roast lamb was very tempting.

Taken from my bedroom window.

Steering me down

Leaving to go back home.

Peshie found a little lamb,
Munching on some toast,
She shaved it down & wrapped it up,
It made the perfect roast!

Whitebord fun!

"Sometimes, I think im Schizophrenic. But the voices in my head tell me otherwise!"

Recently I have invested in a whitebord that hangs in my living room. The perpose of this whitebord is to write either uplifting or humorus quotes in which would make me laugh or feel good. They stay on there for a week and during that time i am either highly amused or uplifted, which i need both of those things in my life.
This weeks quote is the one above in which i just randomly blurted out one day. It made me laugh so it made the cut.
A previous quote was ..

"Find fun in everything you do. That way, you are always happy and having fun!"

So if any of you out there have any quotes that are either uplifting or funny, feel free to shear and it may end up on my whitebord for a week.

Unknown illness and a walking Mischief

One Friday morning, i woke somewhat still tiered, but that is not unusual for me seen as the sandman often makes a bypass round my house and avoids putting me to sleep, or even keeping me to sleep. Not even the adult version in the form of little blue pills brings on the much needed cuddly sleep creature. But this is all irrelevant and inconsequential to that story that is about to unfold.
I got up and dealt with the day at hand. Went through the motions of getting the mischiefs their breakfast and dealing with the days normal issues when you have children.
At 1pm i bundled the mischiefs in the car and ventured out to do a few things before we need to arrive at a 1 year olds birthday party. The party was good, and the mischiefs had fun. At 3.30pm i start gathering everything and think about heading home. By the time i arrive home at 4pm im starting to feel a mild twinge in my throat. Only 3 hours later when the mischiefs were in bed my throat was becoming rather swore, my head was starting to pound and my chest was getting a twinge of pain. By 9pm i was lying in bed not really wanting to move, by body was starting to ache.
I was forever waking up that night finding it a struggle to breath. At one stage i had to find a bucket to have beside my bed because when ever i had a sip of water it did not feel like it would stay where it was meant to. What on earth could come on so fast and so viciously? When the mischiefs got up at 7am, i was unable to move. I was in a fair amount of pain from head to toe. The only thought i had was this is the flu, i have had the flu before and this was very much what i had felt like. Except this was slightly different. The aches and pains and the mildly blocked nose with a sore throat where all things i knew with the flu, except this not knowing if i could hold water down was something i had not experienced with this virus. Could this flu i have be the dreaded H1N1 Swine flu? Sometime that morning my Branch President of My church had shown up to give me a blessing. While he was there i rung the urgent doctors because i wanted to know what the difference was between the "normal" flu and swine flu. The nurse on the phone wanted me to come down and get checked out because she could tell that i was having difficulties breathing. So the hunt was on to find someone to look after the mischiefs while President took me to the Doctors because i was clearly in no state to drive and take myself. We found someone (amassing Esther and her awesome hubby Moo ... They need a post all of their own in order to give them the right gratitude that i have) so off i went. Luckily because i had trouble breathing and chest pain i was seen right away. But come to think of it, i don't think they believed me because they took my temperature (i was already so dopped up on panadole which not only is a pain killer but it brings your temperature down) and it was high but not extremely high, and even though it was painful to breath, my blood was still getting a very good amount of oxygen in it. They looked at my throat and saw it was red, so gave me some antibiotics and sent me on my way. Didn't tell me why my chest hurt or why my entire body felt like i had been thrown out of a 10 story building. I wanted to know what exactly was wrong with me. But i was far to much away with the fairies to even to think about asking what they thought was wrong with me before i stumbled back out the front door. Later that night Esther and Moo turn up and find me in my bedroom struggling to breath. My chest was hurting as much as what labour pains feel like and im not talking about those beginning stages of labour pains, i mean the full on take your breath away tears flowing down your face sore because you opted to not have drugs. I then got checked out again by someone, this time it was paramedics that Ester had called for, but they had said that i was ok and didn't exactly believe me that i had a flu.
Wow this is turning into a much larger post than i had anticipated. So cutting a long story short, I was extremely sick. Im not one to complain when im sick and it takes an awful lot to knock me off my feet. This mystery illness did. Was it the dreaded swine flu or some other nasty greebly that found its way into my system.

But during this ordeal, Mischief number 3 - Madison, decided to put one foot in front of the other and try out walking. She is now walking all around the house and enjoying it immensely. Although sometimes to much as she get over excited and falls down. That is when i to fall on the floor with fits of laughter.

Three walking mischiefs ... what ever shell i do?

Random Occurrence

Tonight for dinner i made scrumptious Home made burgers where i even make the beef patties ... mmmm yum. One thing i like in my burgers is an egg. I cracked open an egg and let it drop into they fry pan, this is what come out ......



Double Yolk Egg. How awesome am i ha ha.

Happy thoughts

AHHHH i need happy thoughts.
Today was an ok day, but the evening has be somewhat stressful, since i was accused of playing little teenage games that i have clearly grown out of. You judge others by your own yard stick - one of my flaws that i am working on - but some people are clearly judging me by theirs. Just because they are still teenagers and like to play silly little games and what not, they seem to think that i do as well. For example - fake online accounts to stalk people with. This is one thing that i will not do. If i was to annoy someone i will do it straight up and not behind any kind of fake name. Second of all i just got frustrated with hearing about someone who really isn't worth my time and i blew up, in public (well as much as the net can be), not behind anything fake. Which then in turn spiraled into some teenage catty fight. Im over them. I had my last one when i was 19 and never intended to have another one. But during this "fight" i found out that this person has been spreading some very nasty things about me. I am fuming mad right now. So before i go to bed, I am going to list as many things as i can that i am thankful for in my life and think happy thoughts. Right now this is going to be hard. Here goes.....

* My gorgeous Mischiefs - even though they do make life hard at times, i love them to bits
* I own my own home - even though its a mess all the time and its drawn all over, its still MINE

..... stop the negative attitude after please ......
Ah its hard to think when your in a mood like this. Must push on.

* I don't have to shear my bed with a snorer. Its peaceful when i sleep. although most nights i sleep with the tv on because it helps me sleep.
* Flowers - Flowers are pretty - although some do smell bad.
* Painting - Although i was ment to finish my painting im doing for Jakob tonight but that got side tracked.

Its amazing how hard this is when you are in a bad mood. But i can't go to bed like this.

* Devins Prayers. He prayed the other night and thanked the lord for his transformer toy.
* Nice music - its always calming
* New Friends who you can really open up to and talk to. Its times like that when you know the lord is looking out for you.
* Hugs - mischief hugs are the best. Maddy Loves hugging at the moment.
* Watching my kids sleep - thats when i love them the most that a tear comes to my eyes.
* Hills - so i can have my house on top of one and see the beautiful view
* Pets - they love you no matter what
* Ice cream
* Hot chocolates in bed
* fluffy pillows
* Warm beds with the electric blanket on
* Pre-school
* Teddy bears
* Warm fires
* Random comments that make me laugh
* GLITTER ... its the most funnest thing around.

* I have a Cabby tat. I am so thank full for that. Not everyone will understand what i just said. She just tells me random things. No im not hearing voices - although im not far off that i would think
* Cabby tat told me to add that im thankfull for New Rocks. I LOVE then to bits. I should wear mine more often.
* Black eye liner with a smudging end
* Purple eye shadow
* BUNNIES (sorry couldn't help myself)
* My little brothers hat that i love to bits that he left in Christchirch now ive got claim on it
* Bubbles. I love bubbles
* Fairy wings are the best as well. If i get married again i MUST wear wings
* Lazy boy chairs
* Queen size beds with King size covers
* Spiders - not the scarry creepy crawly type. But the ones where its ice cream and fizzy
* Tim tam slam

Ok there is so much more that i can say now. So my work here is done. Good night all and i hope to sleep well tonight.