My Super Hero

There have been a couple things later that have been weighing me down. Bothering me somewhat.

Thing 1 :
Im in debt buy a fair few hundred. Depression and lovely little plastic cards do not mix well, especially when you have a fair amount in the bank because its just before all your bills are due. And also it doesn't help you sort out your budget and i made a couple of huge mistakes like misjudging the week the mortgage came out and forgetting to put money aside one week for the next. Lets just say that the amount was over 500 but not yet near 1000. Debt is stressful. When Jakob found out i was in as much debt as i was, he jumped to it and found me a way out. I don't know exactly how he did it but i do know it was completely legal, But he just gave me all the money i was missing to make ends meet. I almost cried when he gave it to me. It was such a relief to finally say i had enough money again. Although it did come with a mild lecture about staying on top of things. Which was understandable and trust me everyone, im not making those mistakes again. I promise. Super hero to the rescue number 1.

Thing 2
I hate vans. I loath them. I unfortunately own one. One unpleasant thing i have found out about my van is that when it is wet, it fish-tails. Its not stable in the slightest. Going around corners i have to be at 20kph at the most and just because im driving straight, doesn't mean im safe. I've found that if i drive over any of the road markings, it can send the back of my van swaying and swerving. Its scary and i hate it. It only happens when it rains, but this is Dunedin, we are not known for our wonderful hours of sunlight all day. It has been hot lately but today i woke up and our house was in the clouds. I do not feel safe driving the van and when the kids are in the car it really worries me. One thing that has bothered me (but i have gotten used to it) is Jakobs impulse buying. Since we have been separated, he has ended up owning 2 cars due to impulse buying. At first i thought what a silly thing to do, but now im so thankful that he did. Because he did, i can now sell my stupid van and use the money to pay off Jakobs ford and then he will give it to me under my name. It means ill have to learn manual but thats ok. Without that car of his i would have had to trade in and then payed off the rest of a new car which i don't have the money for. The ford is the youngest of the cars and would be safer to drive. Super hero to the rescue number 2.

Thing 3
With 3 little kids its hard to keep up with housework. This whole time we have been separated, He has still come over and helped clean when i needed. One time i went to church and came home and found my house clean. I was amazed. He mentioned the other day that he wanted me to pick a day when i would go out for a while and he would come round and clean my house. Now that would be bliss. Super hero to the rescue number 3.

Im so thankful for all that he has done for me lately. Sure he has made my life complicated but he has also taken some huge burdens off my hands. He has shown me that even though we are not together, he is still there for me. This last weekend he has spent a fair amount of time with the kids as well. They absolutely love and adore their dad. I still love him lots, Well as much as an ex-wife/estranged-wife can/should/whatever hmmm.