Would you really

Would you really stay strong? Would you really stay strong in the face of your worst nightmare?

I have tried so hard for so long to stay strong, but this year has been the hardest. From the end of last year to this current day, one of my worst nightmares has been playing out.

Last year i cried to my mum and said "what happens if blah blah blah happens? I don't think i will ever be able to cope with that if it happened." What i said to her was one of my worst nightmares. Most of you happy mormons will never have to worry about that happening to you, so you can say all you like about how you would cope, but would you really?
Since September last year it hasn't just been the one thing of Jakob walking away from the marriage, it has been blow after blow after blow as my nightmare unfolds, And today is going to be yet another blow. It has been blows both emotionally and spiritually. This nightmare is far from over and all i have herd from people is how everyone is gossiping and saying "Im not going to go out and do stupid things just becasue im not coping". Id love to see half of you deal with ALL i have to deal with and see if you stay strong.
I am alone in this. I have no family down here and my only friends are those in the church, or so i thought. The only person who checks in on my everyday and makes sure im still here is Jakob and he is having to move away today. He doesn't want to move away but he has no choice and must go. I realized the other day that anything could happen to me, i could die in my sleep from a stroke or something and no one will know for a few weeks. Its not odd at all for me no to see or hear from anyone for a few weeks. My closest friends live either in Christchurch or Wanganui and im stuck here without them. I can't move back home right now becasue i can not sell my house without getting into massive debt, and i can not rent my house out becasue i will still loose money if i do and i can't afford that. Right now, i am stuck in Dunedin with no help or support, only people who want to sit around and gossip. How fair is that?

This is not a blog about "woe is me", This is a blog about "do not judge or gossip". Gossip and judging distroys people, especially when they are getting distroyed from other things as well.

Do not judge me for reacting the way i am in the situation i have been forced into. Due to the selfish actions of others, i am hear in one of my worst nightmares. Stop judging and gossiping!!

Lets play a game

This is a box.
This is a locked box.

I wonder what is in this box. Hmm.
Lets guess. It is a tool box but it does not have tools in it. So i want to know what you people may think is in this box. Take a guess and comment what you think is in this box.

THINK OUTSIDE THE BOX!!!


Come on guys, Im not going to reveal what it is until more of you guess!!

Robin Hood

For all those that have children and wish to entertain them over the holidays, My mother in law is again putting on one of her shows.
This time she has given me a minor role as the tooth fairy. This should give you an indication on what kind of show it is. Seeing a tooth fairy in the play Robin Hood is somewhat misplaced, but that is the nature of my wonderful mother in law. She writes some very funny childrens show and anyone in Dunedin, here are the details of the show if you would like to come.
Wednesday 22nd to Friday 24th, shows are at 11am and 2pm and on Saturday 25th, shows are on 2pm and 6.30pm. All tickets are $7 and is at the Globe Theatre.
If anyone is interested in coming, let me know and I will book you in. The theatre is a small one so it would be best to book.
If you have not guessed yet either, the recent picture of me under the title "queen mischief", that is me dressed im my tooth fairy costume. When Carol was writing the play, she felt the tooth fairy was somewhat gothic, so that is how she dressed me, and i let her do as she pleased.