Lets play a game - Answer

Very good. I loved reading what you all thought. Erika - air, rather clever. You are the closest person because you did think very obviously. Of course air is going to be one of the things that are in there.

This box has come about due to having to take drastic measures to stop the mischiefs from destroying our house anymore. Im not overly stressed about it because im going to change all the wall paper anyway, but its not a good habit to have the kids get into.

This is what is in the box .......

This is why they are in a locked box.......

I have tried many other approaches to prevent this from occurring but they have all failed. Most of the crayons have been eaten by the little girl mischiefs which is a relief seen as the crayon seems to be the choice weapon of war against my walls, but i still feel it necessary to lock all the pencils away as well.

Often i would put the kids to bed with the illusion that all the crayons are safely in the top draw, only to wake in the morning to find a new colour sprawled through the already artistic mural they have lovingly created.
So enough is enough, everything i can find that they will use as a decorating tool for my walls, will now be locked in this box.

Now lets hope that Devin doesn't start learning how to open the lock.

Would you really

Would you really stay strong? Would you really stay strong in the face of your worst nightmare?

I have tried so hard for so long to stay strong, but this year has been the hardest. From the end of last year to this current day, one of my worst nightmares has been playing out.

Last year i cried to my mum and said "what happens if blah blah blah happens? I don't think i will ever be able to cope with that if it happened." What i said to her was one of my worst nightmares. Most of you happy mormons will never have to worry about that happening to you, so you can say all you like about how you would cope, but would you really?
Since September last year it hasn't just been the one thing of Jakob walking away from the marriage, it has been blow after blow after blow as my nightmare unfolds, And today is going to be yet another blow. It has been blows both emotionally and spiritually. This nightmare is far from over and all i have herd from people is how everyone is gossiping and saying "Im not going to go out and do stupid things just becasue im not coping". Id love to see half of you deal with ALL i have to deal with and see if you stay strong.
I am alone in this. I have no family down here and my only friends are those in the church, or so i thought. The only person who checks in on my everyday and makes sure im still here is Jakob and he is having to move away today. He doesn't want to move away but he has no choice and must go. I realized the other day that anything could happen to me, i could die in my sleep from a stroke or something and no one will know for a few weeks. Its not odd at all for me no to see or hear from anyone for a few weeks. My closest friends live either in Christchurch or Wanganui and im stuck here without them. I can't move back home right now becasue i can not sell my house without getting into massive debt, and i can not rent my house out becasue i will still loose money if i do and i can't afford that. Right now, i am stuck in Dunedin with no help or support, only people who want to sit around and gossip. How fair is that?

This is not a blog about "woe is me", This is a blog about "do not judge or gossip". Gossip and judging distroys people, especially when they are getting distroyed from other things as well.

Do not judge me for reacting the way i am in the situation i have been forced into. Due to the selfish actions of others, i am hear in one of my worst nightmares. Stop judging and gossiping!!

Lets play a game

This is a box.
This is a locked box.

I wonder what is in this box. Hmm.
Lets guess. It is a tool box but it does not have tools in it. So i want to know what you people may think is in this box. Take a guess and comment what you think is in this box.

THINK OUTSIDE THE BOX!!!


Come on guys, Im not going to reveal what it is until more of you guess!!

Robin Hood

For all those that have children and wish to entertain them over the holidays, My mother in law is again putting on one of her shows.
This time she has given me a minor role as the tooth fairy. This should give you an indication on what kind of show it is. Seeing a tooth fairy in the play Robin Hood is somewhat misplaced, but that is the nature of my wonderful mother in law. She writes some very funny childrens show and anyone in Dunedin, here are the details of the show if you would like to come.
Wednesday 22nd to Friday 24th, shows are at 11am and 2pm and on Saturday 25th, shows are on 2pm and 6.30pm. All tickets are $7 and is at the Globe Theatre.
If anyone is interested in coming, let me know and I will book you in. The theatre is a small one so it would be best to book.
If you have not guessed yet either, the recent picture of me under the title "queen mischief", that is me dressed im my tooth fairy costume. When Carol was writing the play, she felt the tooth fairy was somewhat gothic, so that is how she dressed me, and i let her do as she pleased.

My Super Hero

There have been a couple things later that have been weighing me down. Bothering me somewhat.

Thing 1 :
Im in debt buy a fair few hundred. Depression and lovely little plastic cards do not mix well, especially when you have a fair amount in the bank because its just before all your bills are due. And also it doesn't help you sort out your budget and i made a couple of huge mistakes like misjudging the week the mortgage came out and forgetting to put money aside one week for the next. Lets just say that the amount was over 500 but not yet near 1000. Debt is stressful. When Jakob found out i was in as much debt as i was, he jumped to it and found me a way out. I don't know exactly how he did it but i do know it was completely legal, But he just gave me all the money i was missing to make ends meet. I almost cried when he gave it to me. It was such a relief to finally say i had enough money again. Although it did come with a mild lecture about staying on top of things. Which was understandable and trust me everyone, im not making those mistakes again. I promise. Super hero to the rescue number 1.

Thing 2
I hate vans. I loath them. I unfortunately own one. One unpleasant thing i have found out about my van is that when it is wet, it fish-tails. Its not stable in the slightest. Going around corners i have to be at 20kph at the most and just because im driving straight, doesn't mean im safe. I've found that if i drive over any of the road markings, it can send the back of my van swaying and swerving. Its scary and i hate it. It only happens when it rains, but this is Dunedin, we are not known for our wonderful hours of sunlight all day. It has been hot lately but today i woke up and our house was in the clouds. I do not feel safe driving the van and when the kids are in the car it really worries me. One thing that has bothered me (but i have gotten used to it) is Jakobs impulse buying. Since we have been separated, he has ended up owning 2 cars due to impulse buying. At first i thought what a silly thing to do, but now im so thankful that he did. Because he did, i can now sell my stupid van and use the money to pay off Jakobs ford and then he will give it to me under my name. It means ill have to learn manual but thats ok. Without that car of his i would have had to trade in and then payed off the rest of a new car which i don't have the money for. The ford is the youngest of the cars and would be safer to drive. Super hero to the rescue number 2.

Thing 3
With 3 little kids its hard to keep up with housework. This whole time we have been separated, He has still come over and helped clean when i needed. One time i went to church and came home and found my house clean. I was amazed. He mentioned the other day that he wanted me to pick a day when i would go out for a while and he would come round and clean my house. Now that would be bliss. Super hero to the rescue number 3.

Im so thankful for all that he has done for me lately. Sure he has made my life complicated but he has also taken some huge burdens off my hands. He has shown me that even though we are not together, he is still there for me. This last weekend he has spent a fair amount of time with the kids as well. They absolutely love and adore their dad. I still love him lots, Well as much as an ex-wife/estranged-wife can/should/whatever hmmm.

Pumpernickle

Pumpernickle, that is an odd word. This word has been stuck in my mind for all day. Why? i have no idea. It just has been.

Jahshia has gone almost the whole week with no nappy but at night. Im so proud of her. If only Devin was this easy to toilet train.

To all those who have sent me texts to my Telecom number, my phone is dead. It wont charge. So for the time being, anyone on telecom, i can not contact you through text and most likely i do not have your number because i can not turn my phone on and i have no idea when i can get a new telecom seen as i am broke broke broke and more broke.

i think that is all i will say for the time being. Im about to go out for dinner.

Proud of my little girl.

Yesterday was a milestone in Mischief Jahshias life. She went the Whole day, from when she woke up to just before she went to bed, with no nappy on. She had no accidents either. I also know though that just because she went yesterday with no mistakes, doesn't mean she is toilet trained.

Oh how i can't wait till all my Mischiefs are toilet trained. No more nappies will be bliss.